Copyright ©04/26/2002 Elizabeth Ellis
I saw a bit of me today,
And would have gladly turned away,
Because the me, that I did see,
Was stealthily cloaked with Envy;
In surprise I thought, “How could Envy be in me?”
I’m such a fine, Christian lady!
There was no reason but it was plain to see,
That this was my temporal reality;
Fleshly thoughts crashing like waves in a sea,
Oh, God, oh, God, why not me?
Why did she get that ministry?
Why did you choose her to sing and not me?
Then Shame and Envy took their place,
As in sorrow and absolute disgrace,
I began the battle with Envy, face to face,
Crying out for God’s Forgiveness and Grace;
Well, dear reader, this you must know,
That when in Christ you begin to mature and grow,
Satan shall inflict on you his deadliest blow,
If by chance, you leave open your desire’s door.
For this is Salvation’s great mystery,
That to live in Christ, I must die to me,
Surrendering all my desires to His Will so I may be free,
To live the Christian life in complete victory!
For if to Fleshly desires, we do cling,
Only Fleshly work, our labours shall bring,
For nothing done in Self shall ever be to Him,
A fruitful offering fit for a Heavenly King!